Someday I will tell you......

Why I am so quiet, when with you

Someday I will tell you.....

That I loved you....

Every night in my dreams, I see you

Under the morning sky blue

Unstable like the leaf under the dew

I burn with fear of losing you

Sometimes I wish I wasn't such a cuckoo

If only I could tell you

How much I missed you

I wish I had that charm too

That made me fall for you

Three Musketeers and a clown

This year has been very interesting as far as my love life is concerned. I never realized I would be able to see two sides of the same coin. After my breakup with  my ex, I wanted to move on and have some fun. Probably sounds too obnoxious from a girl's point of view as the word FUN is usually interpreted cynically. Amitesh, Akchat and Raju are my classmates from school. Initially I agreed to meet them just because of Akchat, but after spending so much time with them I started enjoying my outings with them every time they come to Bhopal. Since I am a little skeptical about guys, I am not sure whether they actually consider me a friend or they are just faking it all, but all in all I am satisfied with the the way they treat me. Atleast I am happy that the one guy who I cannot get my eyes off from is beside me all that time. :)

Love in Electronics department

Every time I think about it, I start freaking out and a grieve depression takes over me. Having seen the best years of my life in college, just before my graduation, I don't know what struck me and I fell in love with a complete nincompoop. He confused me with his stupid ideas of what an ideal life is, being a complete idiot he ruined my idea of a perfect love story. Small town guys like him just want one thing from girls. Why should I follow him?? Who the hell is he to tell me what is right and what is wrong?? I might be sounding like a brat who is ready to waste her life on some womanizer ignoring my real true love. But I don't think he is even close to what I want in life. If someone calls him dumb and idiot he thinks that is a positive comment. He is the reason for my depression and he tells me that I ruined my college life because of one of my school friends. Just wanna tell him GO TO HELL.

Madly in Love

I moved from a convent school to a co-ed after 10th with two of my best friends. Somehow they managed to blend with the group very soon. I however, remained an alien for almost a year. The thing that used to hurt me the most was that the guy I fancied was teased by one of my best friend's name while I remained outlandish for him. I couldn't gather the guts to go and talk to him in person. Not able to bear any more of it, I found a way to talk to him with a fake identity. He revered talking to me, but somehow he realized that I was faking it all and that it was somebody he already knew. He was left in a flabbergast when I told him who I was. Our friendship has grown from that day and today I can say, if I proposed to him, he might not say yes, but he wouldn't stop talking to me after this incidence and that's enough for me. There is one thing I am sure about, I will keep loving him Madly for ages to come.  

The love of my life: Akshay Kumar

Unlike all those who think the Khiladi Kumar is ludicrous and asinine, I have always fancied him since the day I watched his film "Khiladi". I wasn't so dingy for him until I saw a still from his movie "Andaaz" featuring him and Priyanka Chopra. From that day on I had been collecting his pictures and watched all his movies till date even if they didn't do well on box office. I was head over heels in love with him until I met a real "mind storming" Khiladi.

My first Love

Back then in LKG when most of the guys and girls had a crush on "Popeye The Sailor Man" or Blossom from "Powerpuff Girls", I was in love with my school captain who was in fifth then. It was a small M.P. board school with very few classes and his class was just in front of mine. In spite of that, I never went to talk to him. I just used to graze him from a distance and dream about him silently. Then the day came when he came looking for me. I was stunned for a while. It was our annual day and he had come to call me for prize distribution ceremony as my name was being called on the stage and I wasn't even ready. He grabbed my arm and dragged me to stage. I didn't know what to do and was embarrassed. The day ended and I went home and cried. After this incidence I never looked back at him. I was disappointed and that was the end of my first love.